Only Bubbly knows. Now all of you do too. I didn’t want anyone to tell me to have hope, hang on or not be a serial abondoner. I need to do it for me and for her. I will not delete her from FB but I am done. I won’t chase her or beg anymore. To be honest, she has done nothing but hurt me over and over for the past 4 out of 6 years of our electronic reunion. The last message I got was from her husband telling me not to contact her again. I sent an apology for something I shouldn’t apologize for and a couple weeks later a happy birthday message. I won’t torture myself anymore. I won’t be made to be the asshole for loving my own child either. I’m done, for me and my raised family. I’m a good, kind person and mother. I won’t allow her to make me feel like an outsider and annoyance. I will send her a birthday message each year but that is all. I left my baby in a hospital. I won’t ever get her back and I need to deal with it.