Only Bubbly knows. Now all of you do too. I didn’t want anyone to tell me to have hope, hang on or not be a serial abondoner. I need to do it for me and for her. I will not delete her from FB but I am done. I won’t chase her or beg anymore. […]
Realizing I was worthy of my daughter and that I WAS her mother, not just a baby transport machine was when I felt the true scope of what I lost. I now envy those who still believe they were not worthy of thier child and that they are the sacrificial transport angel for infertiles.
My motherhood awakened and I tried to drown it. It came anyways. I guess we are done. I’m sorry I wanted more, wanting what was taken from me/us.