I haven’t written in so long. I have nothing to write. Coming to the conclusion that I’ve been rejected has left me with empty arms again and an empty heart. I have been tucking the pain away again and have stopped trying. Its been two years since she rejected me and I kept trying…until this year. I’m tired of the pain attempting to keep a one sided relationship brings. I last emailed in February and to my surprise she responded a week later. However, I decide to wait to see if she would email me this time. I’m still waiting. I was going to try yesterday but have nothing left to say. Its like I’m struggling to take just one more breath instead of succumbing to inevitable death. I deleted what I had as I could only read my desperate attempt to have any connection and I’m sure she would sigh and read the desperation too and then try to decide if she would entertain me with a response.