Surrender…short and not so sweet

When my daughter was lost to adoption, the deck was stacked against me to keep her. I was cut off at every turn. Since my so called reunion, it has become apparent that the deck is stacked again. I’m tired of trying and begging to be in an email reunion which is almost completely silent on her side. She has made it loud and clear that I currently have no place in her life by her silence and rudeness. I have heard many times that the adoptee had no choice and therefore needs to be catered to. I also had no choice in adoption and so now I have decided to surrender to adoption again as its powers are stronger than me. I have quit reunion. I do not deserve to be treated like shit for having her stolen from me and I refuse to continue the punishment. If she seeks me out, I will always be there but I can no longer pursue her. I’m done.